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mood : sleepy
what i'm doing : bloggin and chatting with nicholas
what i've been doing past 5 mins : chatted with shao hern, MrJaya, kenn and nicholas
what i'm going to do : give Mishkah a lil pat, watch clarissa playing her ps3, drink water and sleep~
what i'm goig to do tomolo : i dn't know yet..

Dear Bloggies

it's funny, i'm lookin at myself, telling myself, i'm going to be 20 this coming June..
i heard this phrase, which i totally agree with it..

Fabio (if i not mistaken) - 'life is ugly, uglier in tv' from TOP CHEF jus today when i watched it.
oh how much i agree with him, but hey.. this is not what i'm going to talk about today, bloggies..

Actually, i was talking to Nicholas about... what kind of friends would i like?
well, for me, my rules since all along, if we're best friend/close friends, it'll be hard for us to go to the next stage..
i don't know why.. i've never experience this 'fall in love with best friends' situation before.. so.. i'd stick myself into this principle, i jus couldn't accept my best friend to be my boy friend.. it means i loose one best friend because i wan a boyfriend...
ah.. never mind, forget what i said... it's just weird.. haha..

however, to anyone that knows me ok, mayb they know that i'm totally not ready yet..
i was HURT 2 times, and the latest was when i was in my best year, 17 years old, still new, still fresh in my memory, i'll never forget, cause it's already turning to a scar that will never healed nicely.. same, forget what i've jus mentioned.. >.<>.<

*missing parts* - i dont know what happened to this..T-T, it's not original anymore...

nicholas and i had some conversation about guys i like..

nicholas : so what kinda guys do you like?
me : er.. i dont know...
nicholas : well yea it's true that you won't know what kinda guys you like until you meet him and think bout it..
****3mins****
me : i know what kinda guys i like...
me : i like guys who loves me very vyer vyer much..
me : and will not let me go until the rest of his life
me : oh and i love surprises!! >.<
nicholas : you'll end up wanting more than that... lol
me : of course he's gotta be loyal to me!! >.<

that's where i'll stop.. of course i didn't end the converstation wit nicholas, but i'm not gonna put my entire converstation here.. loll
and so... now i knwo what kinda guys i like, but can i erally find him? LOLLL
talking bout bf.. i've got 2 pimples on my face now... T-T
ya crap again.. haha

but hey, it's gonna be my bedtime soon, of course i'm crapping a lil here and there. you're allowed to crap lots of stuff before your bed time you know, bloggies.. haha~
at least i do that.. i'm really sleepy also.. *yawns*

time to ciao..

update in When You wish too much upon a star story - there will be chapter 2 coming up soon. hhaa~

thanks for listenig bloggies, love ya~