When you wish Too much Upon A star~~

I've always believe in this rumors... i've always wanted to feel it as well..

people say that on the last day of a year, you will be forever tied to the person you kiss the moment the first fireworks lights up the sky, the moment when that last night of the year turns to the first day of another year...

i've met someone i loved, i cherished him and all.. he is a handsome, dark and tall guy.. all the girls would drool when he passed by them, and of course, i'm one of them as well, it's just that we were childhood friends to begin with.. and i am tryin my best to invite him on the last day of the year, 31st December 200X

"Hey, are you free tomorrow night?" i asked jokingly

"Hmm, yea, why?" he asked

"Nothing much, just asking if you're so free tomorrow, let's go celebrate the last day of the year together?" I asked, i'm already feelin very nervous.. butterfly in my stomach and my hand is sweating a lot now..

"Why, yea sure. there's nothing much to do anyway. but i thought you wanted to stay at home tomorrow watchin anime?," he asked as he smiled to me

he smiled... his smile is the best medicine i could find in the world.. whenever i felt depressed or sad.. once i saw his smile, my life would be different... i've always been in love with him since we were young.. i wonder if he noticed it??

"Well, there isn't any nice anime to watch, so i decided to invite you over and celebrate the occassion together," i said, strugglin to find a reason...

i'm an anime freak... he knows that as well.. and almost every occasion, i tried to hide myself in the room and watch anime.. havin fun in my fantasy world..

"ah.. i seee," he said, nodding his head

"Ok then, let's meet in the roof top? like last time we did?" i said, happily

"Sure, will be seeing you there by 11.30?" he smiled

I nodded.. and his smile again has make my heart melt...

and since he agreed to meet tomorrow night.. i guess it's the time for me to confessed? however, there's a lot of things i haven't considered... does he even has a girlfriend? he is so good lookin and i'm sure he has got one or two before.. but now? i'm not too sure, and i wouldn't wan to think if he has got a girlfriend...

the night has come when i were finally able to confess after 12 years of friendships... yea, 12 years, since i was 5, I've always been tellin myself that i only wanted to be married to him and no one else... until now.. however i just began to notice that i eventually begin to love him when i was in Primary 5 and he in Primary 4... ( he was already handsome last time, even the aunties couldn't help but to tease him as well) lolx

so i went up to the roof top.. where we usually meet when we were young...

it's only 11pm now... i'm too nervous and excited.. i couldn't help myself to feel hot as the time goes by.. my hands are cold my feet are freezin.. and i kept waitin... i wonder if i could kissed him once the first fireworks lit up into the sky? i wonder if i could even confess to him seeing the condition i'm facin now...

i heard footsteps from below... i am gettin more and more nervous now...

however, this time.. Goddess of Luck isn't by my side...

i saw him.. behind him, a girl.. holdin his hand, walkin up towards me... my heart broke into pieces that instant.. she's his girlfriend and i can conclude that

"Hello," he said, with his smile

"Hi," the girl said to me, smiling... happily

she is truly a beauty... a beauty that only match my dear loved one in front of me...

"H.. Hi," i said.. stumblin over my little words

"She is..?" i put my courage all together to ask him, ignoring my heart beat

"Oh, she is my girlfriend, pretty isn't she?" he said, teasingly

his girlfriend chuckles and hit his head lightly... they were very close for what i can see...

"Oh, i see.." my voice dropped.. but no doubt, i forced myself to smile

three of us took a seat and start lookin at the sky.. feelin the fresh air and cool wind around us.. but i just couldn't take it anymore..

i guess i just have to give up..

"Hey, do you know that you will be forever tied to the person you kiss the moment the first fireworks lights up the sky?" i asked

"Really?" he asked then turned his gaze to his beautiful girlfriend

"Well, yea, that's what they said anyway," i said, i feel like a thousand needles just thrust deep into my heart.. i screamed in my mind.. i cried in my heart, but i just couldn't show it out or say it out loud..

i gulped.. i then stood, tryin to hold my tears i said

"Sorry, guys, i forgot there's one nice anime for me to watch, i really wanted to watch it, i guess now it's already finish downloading, so i'm going back and watch it now!" i said, without a full stop in my sentence

with my last smile i gave to them, i walked away quickly as i could, hopin that they won't see me holding my tears... i didn't turn back once...

i ran.. i ran back to my house.. into my room and jumped onto my bed, crying..

it was all my fault anyway.. i shouldn't have expect him not to have a girlfriend.. i shouldn't have put my hopes so high.. and now.. it all fall like shootin stars..

i'm just another friend of his.. why should he care for me that much? his girlfriend is far much more better than me... Beautiful, pretty, polite and nevertheless, young..

sometimes you just can't believe there's person to be cute and pretty at the same time.. but that's what she is.. and i'm sure he falls for her because of this..

i'm a year elder... i don't think he'll ever expect me to have fell in love with him.. this long right??